Ever since I can remember I have planned my wedding. I used to imagine myself in a huge Cinderella dress, tiara and when clear heals became popular I was beside myself with joy! Eventually my ideas changed into a Wizard of Oz theme with an emerald city cake, yellow brick road and skittles on every table. I always had it planned and would wonder who my groom would be. It was all about the wedding. Me being the superstar for the day. Then I met Jeremy.When we met I had just turned 30 and my tastes had begun to change. I still played with my wedding ideas in my head and sometimes would even imagine him as the groom. But still this was all just an idea, a dream that was mostly in my head. When Jeremy and I started to talk about getting married I started putting my ideas together and my dream started to move closer to my heart. When Jeremy proposed and asked me to be his wife my heart exploded and wedding plans became so real! Well as most of you know I broke my leg the day after and so in my pain med state I watched every wedding show on TV I possibly could so I could feel like a wedding was really coming. The past few weeks it has become much more real to me.
"Wedding" isn't it. As little girls we dream of our wedding without understanding it's just a door to marriage. A path brand new to us and something we can't understand until we walk it. Thinking about what this wedding means brings up memories of so many I've been too. A wedding where it seemed the girl was being pressured to marry the man, the wedding where the couples love was so evident they never let go of each others hands, a wedding where the couple was expecting a baby and didn't seem to care about the commitment but just wanted to make their family happy and another where the bride and groom laughed through the entire thing until the officiant told them this was serious. It is serious. I'm not saying you can't laugh at a wedding but I am realizing the seriousness of what I am committing to. Fancy clothing, cake and flowers aside I am promising to spend my life with this one person no matter what. No divorce, no cheating, no outs for us. This is it. The day we get married we become family. And family stays, no matter what.
After thinking about these things I realize how serious it is to take the time to choose who you make these promises to and really seek God on it because HE ALONE can see through people and know our true desires, intentions and hearts. I feel for me that God has led me to Jeremy and although neither of us are perfect people we do our best not to keep secrets from each other no matter how small. We are see though in our thoughts and feelings.I am so excited about my wedding day, I feel like it will be a wonderful friend reunion I may never have again till I am in Heaven but even more, that day I will bind myself to an amazing man and with our family and friends celebrate something God created to be wonderful.
If I could leave this post saying one last thing, don't be the person who gets so caught up in the wedding planning that you can't wait till it's over! Cut things down if you have to, it's not about having the best event.. it's about the people around you and the beautiful promises you will make.
- Mary Jane
(SIDE NOTE: Please know I am not condemning anyone who has been or is divorced. I do not pretend to know everyone's situation. This is just my story)
